How to Be a Fictional Character

on the cruel irony of waking up again. for some reason, my most famous poem.
13/07/2016. total words: 159

step one.
exist. you are a blank state; and the love you feel will never be enough.

step two.
make poor choices. your sense of justice is surely misguided.

step three.
fall apart. your story is romanticized and your tears fall on desensitized ears.

step four.
die. was it even worth it, you'll never know.

step five.
return to the living. if it's your brain or your soul or something else, you'll breathe again.

step six.
be confused. you don't understand these misplaced memories or fleeting feelings, or the decisions you think you made.

step seven.
understand. it all comes falling into place, where you had been, what you were. it's like electricity in your blood.

step eight.
let go. this is your redemption and now you have to move on.

step nine.
let go. your world is gone.

step ten.
let go. it's behind you now.

step eleven.
let go. they're never coming back.

step twelve.
let go.